I’m in the In-Between

The whats and wheres don’t matter.

What matters here is that I am experiencing letting go of one important era, while having not quite started the next. There is a definitive step that needs to take place that has to be completed by another. I have done all that I can do.

And now I must wait.

This where so much growth can happen if we let it.

Too often we are quick to do whatever it takes to skip over this part.

Waiting is difficult. Not being in control is difficult. Wondering what in the world is taking so long ia difficult.

And the funny thing is, I will not remember any of this. Once the paperwork is submitted and everybody does what they need to do, the moment is over forever. I will have crossed a threshold, I will have moved through an invisible and personal veil of Level-Up, never to go back to where I was ever again—and I won’t remember this discomfort.

If I had not been careful, if I had been in a hurry to get to the end, I would have missed the significance of this upward-for-me movement.

I’m not a Saint—I wanna jump to the end too.

But I know that that will happen in due time, and if I can Be Here Now, and don’t distract myself, and don’t skip over this feeling, and if I let this mixture of feelings do its work without interference, I would have captured an organically rare moment and used it to expand.

This will show up in the teaching.